Tomorrow begins my first full week back at work since I had Max in January. I did technically go back for one half day on Good Friday, but that was just a transition day since it was so short and Eric had the day off and was home with Max.
I know moms have a wide range of emotions when it comes to going back to work. I respect all of these emotions and I recognize that mine are influenced by my childcare situation. My mom will be staying with Max full time, which is pretty much ideal because I never ever have to worry about him. I also have the advantage that I'm a teacher and summer is coming in about 8 weeks :)
So how do I feel?
excited to think about normal things again and eat lunch with adults (and by "eat lunch with adults" I mean scarf down my food in 20 minutes so I can pump the last 10… yippee)
stressed thinking about getting everything done at work in a much shorter time frame (I'll be getting to work later so I can feed Max in the morning, and I probably will not have time for much work to be accomplished at home)
sad to not spend as much time with Max as I used to
happy to see my kindergarten students and to spend my favorite time of the school year with them
exhausted thinking about doing a whole day with the kindergarten kids and not even being close to done when I get home
nervous that I will miss all future "firsts" while I'm at work
But mostly I feel ready. I have said before I'm just not stay at home mom material. Anyone else give me until Wednesday to change my mind on this? Wish me luck :)